Nine years ago, I went to therapy for anxiety and started this blog.
Six years ago, I left my news career.
Those were the two healthiest things I’ve ever done.
This week was the closest to news reporting that I’ve done since. I’ve posted frequent COVID updates. I planned a TV segment on healthy tips for working from home. I wrote a blog post attempting to make home isolation fun. I didn’t think much of being asked to write a blog post on minding mental health during this health emergency. Business as usual. That’s what I do.
It wasn’t until I was posting it that I felt the magnitude of all that has happened since February 29 when a state of emergency was declared in Washington state. A week ago, I cleared out my desk at the office. When our vice president told us we could take our monitors and any other equipment home, I got it. This isn’t going to be like a snow storm when we work at 60% for a day or two. We were going to be home for a while.
I was on a conference call and someone said, it’s going to be interesting to see what the world is like six months from now. I don’t think we’re going to go back to working the way we did before.
I think he’s right. We probably won’t. Not all of us anyway.
Then events started getting canceled. Restaurants started closing. Everything began to feel changed.
I was keeping busy going for daily walks, cooking meals, checking in on friends, and earning a master’s degree. I thought I was doing everything right.
But talking to therapist Amy Cirbus made me remember that I need to slow down and let myself feel.
“Everyone’s life is disrupted right now,” she told me.
Yeah, it is.
I had a lot more work to do before leaving my “office” today, but I wrote the mental health post. Because it’s the post I needed to read today.
And then I put on a feelings-packed playlist on Spotify and laid on the floor next to my cat. And I let myself feel everything I had been avoiding–just as I had in my journalism days.
Wherever you are in this, we’re all in it together—from a safe distance apart. Sending lots of love to you all.