My body seems to be rejecting New York. I know I sound dramatic. Go with me for a minute.
First, my face is flaky. It looks frightening. I’ve tried Cetaphil, a humidifier, cutting out red wine and a handful of blueberries every morning. The blueberries do help, but it’s like they still need a team to help them out. I also take a little comfort in knowing this is a common problem for a lot of people when they first move here. I’ve heard it a lot.
Then my body got tired. I haven’t been running in weeks. I think my early work hours plus excitement for doing and seeing everything has taken its toll. After walking a mile home (through crowds, in heels), then up the stairs, I’m beat. I don’t want to change clothes and go out again. I just joined a Saturday morning soccer team in hopes I’ll have early energy for running and playing. Plus, if it’s on the schedule and people are counting on me, I’ll go. I’m changing my thinking from, “I should run today,” to, “I get to run around and play soccer with new friends today.”
Finally, I itch. Think about the itchiest wool sweater you’ve ever been in, except I’m not wearing wool or anything new. My back, legs, chest all itch. I’m practically bathing in my Aveeno Daily Moisturizing lotion, the same stuff I’ve used for years. You won’t see me in shorts or dresses until I get this under control. It hurts to shave and my legs are looking rough from the scratching.
I read a book last year called, “You Can Heal Your Life.” The idea is that poor health or symptoms can be attributed to your mind. You need to give yourself positive affirmations to get rid of it. I looked up eczema and other skin conditions. Here are the affirmations she recommends, I’m stealing from the Interwebs here. I returned the book to the library.
Probable Cause: Breath-taking antagonism. Mental eruptions.
Affirmation: “Harmony and peace, love and joy surround me and indwell me. I am safe and secure.”
Probable Cause: Anxiety, fear. Old, buried guck.
I am being threatened.
Affirmation: “I lovingly protect myself with thoughts of joy and peace. The past is forgiven and forgotten. I am free in this moment.”
Probable Cause: Desires that go against the grain. Unsatisfied. Remorse. Itching to get out or get away.
Affirmation: “I am at peace just where I am. I accept my good, knowing all my needs and desires will be fulfilled.”
Sounds like I’m looking for peace. “I am at peace just where I am.” “I am at peace just where I am.” “Harmony and peace, love and joy surround me.” “Harmony and peace, love and joy surround me.” On a positive note, my curls have been behaving quite nicely here.