I’m happy. I am bursting with excitement for so many things. I’m appreciating my life and feeling incredibly grateful. It was a gorgeous Manhattan day. The sun was shining. Birds were chirping. I took things at my own pace and did only what felt good to me today. And that felt amazing.
I felt like I truly took time to appreciate today. I made coffee and drank it while lingering in bed. I enjoyed a hot shower and let the water hit my back longer than usual. I felt the breeze through my window and listened to cheerful birds. It felt good just staying in, but I was eager to purchase soccer gear, so I ventured to Sports Authority – somewhere between the West Village and the Flatiron District. I wasn’t planning to get workout clothes, but this T-shirt on the clearance rack caught my eye. “I Got This,” it said. I said that a lot in Seattle in the months before I left (well I used the grammatically correct, “I’ve got this,” but close enough). My co-worker pointed it out to me one day, and started teasing me for it.
And I’ve embraced it. I’ve thought it a lot in New York, too. It keeps the anxiety at bay to know I can handle this.
After Sports Authority, I had planned to stop at Madison Square Eats or Eatley even though I was just there yesterday. It sounded good again today. But on my walk, I spotted a Trader Joe’s that I didn’t know existed. I went there and bought two bags of snacks and meals I could prepare at home. That sounded even better than street food. Still sore from an intense yoga class and lots of walking yesterday, I opted for the F to the 7. I got to my building and knew my six floor-hike would be tough, while weighed down with bags, but “I’ve got this,” I thought. Before I knew it, I was already on 6 with my keys out. Somehow that climb seemed easier than ever. Still, I rewarded myself with a big swig of strawberry-orange-banana juice. [Note to Quyn: I got the lemon-gingersnap ice cream I was telling you about. Stop by for some before it’s gone!]
I’ve had many “Life is good” moments since I arrived in New York. It’s not due to geography. It’s because of my state of mind. I think I could feel this way anywhere. I’m just not letting things get to me. Sure there are disappointments. Sure, those disappointments bother me. Sure, I still have very few friends here, but I have all the tools I need to love and appreciate. And that self-reliance makes me really, really happy.
And it makes me crazy-happy to hear that people around me are over-the-moon happy as well. Hooray for optimism!